...Secret Whisperings & Silent Sins...

I'm selling EVERYTHING!!! If you want anything let me know :)

Sat, 20 Jun 2009 07:08:41 GMT

To see please go here...

http://community.livejournal.com/niceboots/6051736.html

& if you want anything but are not a member of the niceboots thing just comment me here :)

xxx

...Insomnia...

Fri, 23 Jan 2009 04:08:54 GMT

To neglect the body for a mind...
To be choked slowly by the hands of time...
To be sick of the noise
whilst in a silent room...
To watch the entire journey across the clouds
of the ivory moon.
To see the sun's light
before its even reached the sky...
To watch each passing hour
take 60 seconds to die.
To shut these eyes
But not shut down...
To toss & turn
as thoughts run round.
To think pure insanity
To hallucinate & create constantly..
Day out, Night In.

...This Coma it is deadly sweet...
I forever dream...But never sleep...

Kali...

Fri, 16 Jan 2009 19:35:11 GMT

So, I've finally finished this epic piece of digital art. O. MY. GOD!!!! *collapses*
I dare not think about how many hours work this has been haha. Bonnie I never want to see your blue face again I'm sick of looking at it ;P (Just kidding, love you really!)
At first I wasn't sure if I was going to like this piece or not, but now it's all done & come together (nearly) as I originally envisioned; I'm very pleased with the results ^_^ so yay!
Thank you to Bonnie for being such a awesome muse & for being so patient in waiting for this to be finished (we shot it months ago!) & thank you to Sam for helping out with the shoot too *hugs*.

This piece was collaboration between me & Bonnie where we were both inspired by the Hindu Goddess Kali (obviously). We wanted to do a modern take on her image & also relate it to Bonnie personally as opposed to just a direct depiction of Kali herself.
The name Kali derives from the Sanskrit word 'Kal' meaning 'time' so we wanted to create an image that conveyed this. We decided on a theme of using 6 different objects to be held in the multiple arms that represented the passage of time from birth to death & which also symbolised life & death in general. We chose a (live) snake, flower, egg, heart, (dead) crow & skull.
We were fascinated with using Kali's image for this project because both me & Bonnie both have a interest in this deity & we liked how she also tied in with the themes of a divine mother figure (Kali ma) & dead animals (Kali is said to carry away the spirits of slain animals). People who know Bonnie will know that she does taxidermy as a pastime; so all of this linked together nicely to create a personal piece for us both.

I'm looking forward to 09 being a bit less manic than 08 & having more time for art & projects... So whilst I'm in no hurry to tackle any photo project that requires this much shopping any time soon, I am looking forward to doing more photo projects in general that I've had on the back burner for ages. So many ideas, so little time.

Floral Play piercing...

Fri, 18 Jul 2008 21:45:09 GMT

So yesterday I was really bored & decided to stab myself up & take pics...as you do. Mmmmm for play piercing, Great fun but rather addictive!
I'm quite pleased with these pics & want to do a lot more around this theme...any volunteers? As I don't want to just self-shoot... O Bonnie my awesome photography muse; I know you'd be up for it so this applies to you lol ^ _ ^ Will be fun!

Anyhoooo enjoy:

I'm currently trying to finish a lot of half done art but I'm finding it hard to be motivated as I feel in a bit of a rut & all arghhhh about living here etc...It kind of leaves me in a state of having all these ideas but then not being able to physically apply myself & get on with it -_- it's annoying the hell out of me! Guess I'll just have to force myself & then hopefully it should all flow a bit smoother from there.
I have lots of things to update about life etc blah blah but cannae be arsed....so maybe another time :P
Other then that I am ill atm which is shit as wanted to go out tonight to see David play @ queen charlotte with Leech Women & Animal Dying Sounds...grrrr fucking stomach! Not pleased >_<

xDDx

CLOTHES FOR SALE!!!!!!!!

Thu, 17 Jul 2008 15:59:01 GMT

Hi guys! After a much needed sort out of my wardrobes I’ve decided to sell a few of things as I do not get the use out of them & I also need some £££ for my car insurance.
I’ve got shoes, latex, tops, skirts & accessories here so have a browse & see if anything takes your fancy.
I’ve added pics & as much info as possible for all the things I’m selling & I’ve also stated the amount I’d like for them…but feel free to make me offers as I might be happy to go lower for some things, plus I love to haggle! :P
It’s first come first served so if you spot a bargain grab it quick & message me.
I will accept payment via personal cheque or postal order (U.K Only) Or by pay-pal. I have not included postages costs but I can let you know what they’d be…I’m happy to ship worldwide for any of these items.

Here goes….

COFFIN BAGS: CLUTCH BAG & BACK BAG
These two bags are really cute ^_^ Been used but in good condition still…happy to sell the pair for £25.00 or the small clutch one for £10.00 & the larger for £15.00 if you want them separate.

RUBY SLIPPERS: U.K SIZE 8
I adore these shoes! But alas, they do not fit me >_< never worn & still in the box…I am a uk size 7 shoe but sometimes in heels need an 8. They are just a bit to big so would best suit an actual u.k size 8. Totally covered in sparkly sequins. Fabulous!
Would like £25.00 please.

IRREGULAR CHOICE: U.K SIZE 8 (41)
These are in mint condition & still with their box. Gorgeous shoes with wonderful detail…very rare & hard to get hold of now. They have been worn indoors on clean floors 3 times in total for photoshoots so they are good as new.
A little bit loose on me but will fit a u.k large 7 or an 8.
After £60 for these little beauties!

RED & BLACK FALLS:
I bought these ages ago but have only ever worn them out 2 times as I’m not that into the whole cyber look (Don’t think it suits me :P) They look awesome in high bunches & consist of rexlace, foam & cyberlox… nice falls!
After £25.00 please.

BLACK & RED PVC CORSET BY ‘SACRIFICE’ 22”
Nice pvc Underbust corset by ‘sacrifice’ it’s 22 inches when closed. Looks great on with nice little buckle details down the sides. Love this but again do not get the wear out of it. It great condition as really worn very few times.
Would like £35 please.

MATERIAL ARM GAUNTLETS BY ‘PHAZE’
These will fit anyone as material streches…hardly worn & very nice looking/comfy to wear when on…buckles all the way down & holes for thumbs.
£10 please.

LEOPARD PRINT JACKET BT ‘LIP SERVICE’ UK 10/12
Well what can I say about this jacket except…I LOVE IT!!!! Do not want to sell but need the money & I do not wear it as much as it deserves. It’s in great condition & has lots of features like bondage straps that can be worn on or off the arms, zip up pockets & the choice to button or zip up the front. Looks baggy & nicely over sized on me (I am u.k 8/10) But will look a good fit on a 10 or 12 uk & should also fit tight on a uk 14.
I’m looking for £40 please.

PVC & FUR TRIM JACKET BY ‘PHAZE’ UK SIZE 12
This is a sexy jacket that I really do not get to wear out ever anymore -_- Black pvc with white/black fleck fur trim. It’s a u.k size 12 but easily fits a little looser on a u.k size 10 & would also fit tight on a u.k size 14.
Looking for £30 for this one.

SUPER KAWAII LOLITA DRESS/VINTAGE U.K SIZE 10
^_^ This dress is so cute! Black & purple with awesome & full puff sleeves…you look like a doll on this & it’s a unique piece as vintage. It fits a u.k 10 fine but will also fit a uk 8 no probs. Would make a stunning addition to any gothic or sweet lolita’s wardrobe.
Looking for £20 please.

BLACK PVC BONDAGE DRESS BY ‘ADERLASS’ SIZE SMALL

This was one of my fave dresses but I just do not get to wear it much now so it needs a good home. It’s very cute of fetish dolly like with lace trim & o ring bondage strap detail on the back. This is a size small so would fit a uk size 8,10 or 12 fine as has a bit of stretch/lacing. In mint condition.
Would like £30 for this please as it was very pricey new.

STRAWBERRY PRINT RA-RA SKIRT BY ‘OMEN’ SIZE SMALL
Kawaii skirt by ‘omen’ hard to get hold of now but it’s really cute & kitsch! Great addition to any wardrobe whether your loli-goth, scene or emo :P
This is size small & I find it tight on my size 10/12 ass (my ass is 40” around!) So it will best fit a small size 10 or perfectly fit a uk size 6/8.
£15.00 please!

BLACK & RED PLEAT SKIRT BY ‘PRISONER’ SIZE SMALL
I do like this skirt but it does not fit me at all! The label says size uk 12 but I can not fit into it… really needs to be a small uk 10 or 8 for this one.
Only want £10 quid :P

SEXY SHORT TU-TU!
This is too short for me hahah…yeah I don’t have the guts to wear it out as I’m not the sort of person a tu-tu suits…shame as it is really cute! Free size with elastice stretch so should fit anyone…but trust me…pople will see your ass cheeks in this one!
£10 please.

CUTE LOLI-GOTH UNDER SKIRT BLOOMERS BY ‘OMEN’ One size
These look great under skirts! Strechy so will fit most sizes 8-14 uk fine. I just do not get to wear these anymore but I used to <3 them.
£8.00 please.

RED & PINK U.V TUTU SKIRTS BY ‘OMEN’
These skirts kick ass but I just do not wear them anymore…Looking to sell as a pair for the bargin price of £14.00 or separate for £7.00 each.
Strectchy so again will fit u.k size 8-14. Look great alone for a sexy ‘you can see my ass!’ look or can be worn under other skirts.

PVC & FUR TRIM SKIRT BY ‘PHAZE’ U.K SIZE 10
Nice little skirt by ‘paze’ hardly worn. Black pvc with white fur trim a nice size 10uk or should fit an 8uk or a very tight fit on 12…has some stretch… I can still get it on but it’s tight.
£8.00 please

PVC & PINSTRIPE MATERIAL TOP BY ‘PHAZE’ SIZE 8
This top is nice but I never wear it…it’s a uk size 8 but easily will fit a size 10 (tightly) or even a 6. Should also accommodate for some tits…fits me fine & I don’t have any but I’d imagine you’d be ok unless you’re getting into a larger size C description. Prob best for A & B cup.
£10 please.

BLACK & WHITE PVC TOP BY ‘LIP SERVICE’ SIZE SMALL
Mmmmm this top is the sex! Don’t want to sell but I just never wear it -_-
Hard to get hold of lip service top from their ‘fetish’ line & in mint condition.
It’s got lovely detail & looks amazing. It’s a size small & will easily fit u.k 8 or 10…has padding in the bust area…a tiny bit loose on my non existent boobs but still ok to wear out… if you have more then me you’ll be fine though ;P
Would like £25 for this please.

U.V PINK & MESH CYBER LONG SLEEVE TOP BY ‘S.D.L’ Size small
This S.DL top is ultra rare & hard to find now, This one is in great condition…it’s an amazing & sexy clubbing top that shows off the upper arms & midriff section. U.V pink with fine black mesh over top. It’s got solid pink pipping detail & also the little folds that hang down from the open arm section. This top rocks!... shame I don’t wear pink anymore >_< This sop has stetch so will fit a u.k size 8,10 or 12 no probs.
Wanting £25 please

BLACK & U.V PINK STRIPEY MESH TOP BY ‘OMEN’
This is a great top to wear alone or over others ^_^ in great condtion & needing rid off just ‘cos not my colours lol. Will fit a u.k size 8,10 or 12
Would like £15 please.

WONDERFUL LATEX HOOD

This hood is the sex!!! Don’t want to part with it but need the £££ T_T (DAMN CAR!) It’s a lovely natural yellowish/transparent colour latex with black detailing.
It’s also got little hoops in the back where you can have the option to lace it up over the zip to do it up tighter or just for the aesthetic appeal. Feels amazing on & I’ve only worn it 3 times, it’s as good as new with no marks or anything…perfect condition! Best fit a size 20-22’’ forehead (measure around forehead) I suppose it’s a women’s one but don’t see why it can’t be unisex.
I would like £50 for this please.

LATEX BRA & SKIRT BUT ‘HOUSE OF HARLOT’
This outfit is super cute & sexy… The bra has superb chequered detailing & it’s very well made… hardly worn & in good condition. The skirt is a size small so will fit a u.k 8-10 & the bra would also fit a 8-12 uk… by non existent boobs are still fine in it but should be able to get an A,B OR C cup to fit no probs…
Would sell this as a set for £60 or the bra for £35 & skirt £25 if you want them separate.

BLACK LATEX OPEN HOOD WITH PONYTAIL.
This is too big for me so never worn…It’s a lovely heavy duty latex open hood with black/purple ponytail. I’d say this is better suited to a larger sized women’s head/face or a man. Size 22.5-25’’ forehead.
Looking for £26

RED LATEX CAPRI PANT WITH STAR DETAIL BY ‘JANE DOE’ SIZE 10/12 UK
These pants are yummy but I never wear them so they need to go to someone who will. Worn about 2 times or so for photos & that’s it... perfect condtion.
Red ¾ length pants with turn up details & stars on the ass (back pictured)
After £45

LATEX CUPLESS WHITE KNEE LENGTH DRESS WITH HEART DETAILS BY ‘ANATOMIC BOMB’ U.K size 8-10

This dress is beautiful but I need to sell as I need to pay the bills >_< I’m letting it go for a steal as it wasn’t new or perfect when I bought it (Was previously owned by the model ‘Ulorin Vex’. It has been used for photoshoots & been worn out a few times now…there are a few marks on the dress (might be able to remove them) & one of the hearts needs a bit of regluing on which should be easy to do. It’s a very figure flattering & sexy dress with open cups so would fit any size boobs. The dress obviously has some stretch being latex so will easily fit a 8-10 uk size but a size 12 would have no probs either. This costs £170 new…but as it’s got a few marks & damage plus previously owned I’m only asking for £75.00 which is a total bargain!

GREEN LATEX MEGA-BOOBS CATSUIT BY ‘SLINKYSKIN’
This has only been worn once for photos…it is so hot! If I got to wear it more I’d not be selling it…but I’m sure someone out there will find more use of of it then me.
Really well made from transparent green latex with inflatable boobs & zip up back/crotch area… it’s a full body catsuit & I can’t begin to describe how good this feels on mmmmm. Slinkyskin are amazing designers of inflatable/bizarre latex clothing & all their garments are made with much care & detail.
This suit would best fit a size 10uk though should also fit a 12’’…my ass is 40’’ around & I did have a tight fit & had to lube up to get into this…so if your ass is any bigger then this around I’d say it would not fit…any smaller though 7 you’ll be fine. Also room for boobs even with the fake inflatable ones :P
This piece is in perfect condition so I would be looking for £120 for it… (it cost me £175 new)

WHITE DRAG QUEEN WIG
This wig is amazing! Really OTT white drag queen wig…great for photos or to wear out on the town. It’s only been worn a handful of times by myself for pics (not out)
Asking for £45 please

xXx

Beata Virgo Maria....

Sun, 16 Dec 2007 13:25:14 GMT

It took over 11 hours of work but yay!

Here are the recent photos I've done for Bonnie as the Virgin Mary. I'm really pleased with them ^_^
we used all our own props to make the entire image (except the flowers in the border...that I made up of loads of flower pics I found online) Bonnie skinned the baby Jesus bunny & I decorated the heart with the flowers, blade & the candles. We were trying to go for something a bit religious kitsch but with our own twist on it & also we were heavily inspired by the work of Pierre et Gilles & of course, Catholic art of the sorrowful mother.
Massive thanks for Sam for doing being prop holder/ spotlight holder extraordinaire & for knowing how to make the fabric into the head dress :P You rock!

xxx

(I'll make a proper update about stuff in general later....)

MATER DOLOROSA

...& A close up of the heart...

xDDx

CROSS DRESSING & TAXIDERMY!

Sat, 03 Nov 2007 17:17:37 GMT

Fuck me I'm bored.... & hung over O so slightly lol.

Last night I spent at home by myself... what resulted was me being Very, very VERY bored & drunk on cider & J.D. I then decided it would be a good idea to draw on myself with my eyeliner which resulted in this:

O yes! I am one sexy mutha fucking bloke! :P Albeit ever so slightly Mediterranean & rapey looking....

In other news I am feeling much more happy ^_^ been going out & having fun with my mates & have been enjoying my life. I've been going for walks about & enjoying all the beauty of the countryside in autumn, The forest was amazing the other day! Serene with only the movement & sound of leaves falling down from the sky & a symphony of colour... gold, browns, orange & red. Autumn always makes me want to paint & take sepia photos :)

I'm also beyond happy over what my lovely Nanny has managed to sort out for me ^_^ She has talked a local taxidermist into teaching me! I was so overjoyed when she told me this that I cried. It's something that I've been wishing to learn & do for so long & now it’s finally going to happen. The guy who's going to teach me knows it all like the back of his hand as he's been doing it for like 30 odd years, I couldn't hope for a better teacher. I still can't believe that he agreed to do it 0_0 as normally taxidermists are, as a rule, very clicky about their craft & not really willing to share it with other people. So I feel very fortunate about it & extremely grateful... it’s going to be so cool!
The other day I also got a message from Adam Powell asking me to star in a music vid he'll be making for the band 'Architects' I'm super stoked about this as they are such a brilliant band & I love working with Adam, It's always so fun :D So should be filming it in different loacations over different weekends, which is also a bonus 'cos I get to drive to & visit new places, which is something I really like doing. So this is something for me to really look forward to... even if it is making me miss being in a band -_- Grrrr. I tried last year to be in a band again but it just wouldn't work out due to me having to work in the evenings. I hate my job for making me miss out on so much I love, I'm extremely sick of it! Ah well not long to go until I'll be quitting. New year, new start. I just want a 9-5 or something, working evenings is shit! So once that all happens I'm going to make a point of doing all the things that working evenings has prevented me from doing... So I will find another band to be in as It's something I have a real passion for & My vocals have gotten so much better since I first started ^_^ I still practice nearly everyday while driving to work & when I'm on my own at home hee he, I will attend much more gigs, do more art, Take up evening classes at college... & well, generally live my life more. It's going to be so liberating the day I hand my notice in!

Not got much planned this week... I;m going up London tomorrow for a family get together to celebrate my cousin's little boy's 1st birthday ^_^ he's so cute! & On Tuesday I'm going out to London for a 50's themed dinner & piss up with Bizarre magazine which should be really fun... was a mission to get work to let me have it off but I've luckily got my own way :P So going to go & meet up with some mates as well. I can't wait to see Laura again, it sucks that she lives so far away. O & sugar if yu're reading this I have your birthday prezzie that I'll bring with me. It's uber random hee hee.

Well anyhoo, not much else to say, just thought I'd update... I'm going to go sort out some more of my myspazz page now & get some food in me. I'm starving!

xxxx

LADY OF THE LILLIES...

Sat, 21 Jul 2007 16:12:49 GMT

I did a botch job photoshoot with Blossom on Thursday evening.... I wanted to use my new canon cam, but alas the memory card I bought for it hadn't gotten there yet (& still isn't here! grrrr) So had to use Blossom's Nikon which was sadly a tad blurry & had a fair amount of noise in the images -_- But luckily did manage to get one good shot from it so I'm happy ^_^

Here it is:

Would have been much better if it was crystal clear & sharp but I'm still very happy with how this came out. I'm the master of salvaging photos :D *high fives*

Love ya Blossom, hope yu like it. Yu look like a pixie ^_^

I'M STILL ALIVE WAVES

Sat, 23 Jun 2007 11:48:45 GMT

Just wanted to make an update to let yu all know that I haven’t died. I’ve just been really useless (a.k.a busy) & haven’t gotten my ass online recently. I’ve only managed to snatch a few minutes here & there, in between working & rushing about sorting things like a mad women!.... It’s been a VERY hectic couple of months for me, so I’m really overjoyed that it’s now looking more & more like I’m going to have more ‘Me time’ & spare time to relax to do what I want & need to do ^_^

Just want to apologise *gets down on knees & begs!* to ulorin_vex for not making the T.G birthday ball… sadly life all went a tad tits up for me around that date & I couldn’t make it. I didn’t have any dollah & was having a few relationship issues etc at the time (all resolved now which is good…) So I’m really, really, REALLY sorry… & gutted that I didn’t go! But if yu’re going to The summer ball on the 7^th july I’ll 100% defiantly be there as I’m going there for birthday celebrations (my birthday’s on the 12^th) Should be a really good night :)

I’ve been feeling really GRRRRR recently because I’ve been so wrapped up in other things that I’ve neglected having much time to myself to create etc. I’m getting to the point where if I don’t get to have the spare time I’m going to totally turn psychotic lol. So I’m having pretty much all this weekend to myself to get on with my Artwork & projects which I’m really glad about because I’ve got lots of art I need to complete & I also need to start work on the designs for my pay site that I’m doing with a friend in North Walsham. July is looking set to be a busy one as far as taking photos go, because I need to shoot a shit load of content for it before we get it up & running!… I just hope the weather gets better so I can do some nice outdoor stuff for it. Global warming my ass! *shakes fist at the grey sky* the weather is really bugging me at the mo & I totally forgot about it being my birthday until like 2 days ago! I’m normally used to the weather around my birthday being stupidly hot & sunny yu see, so It doesn’t even feel like it’s the right time of year. All the rain we’ve been having is so damn depressing. I want sun! -_-

I’ve been doing some really exciting things over the last two months & life in general is fine & dandy for me right now. I feel like I’m in a really good place & that I’m slowly but surely achieving all my dreams & desires. I couldn’t wish for it to be any better which is such an ace feeling…. I’ve just got this amazing inner glow of happiness & contentment at the moment & I’m so at peace with myself/comfortable in my skin it almost scares me….But I do like the fact that I can place my hand on my heart & declare that I am truly happy. & what tops it all off is that it’s the kind of inner happiness that nothing or nobody else can take from me. It comes from inside me & only I can take it away… Kind of hard to describe but its very lovely ^_^ *smiles*

I’ve been up & down to London a few times for some photo shoots recently which have been cool… Worked with the ever lovely & talented Marc Blackie again on the 9^th & got some really cool stuff done. We did a spanking pic where I was being spanked by a scarecrow which was fun (One of the shots from that set is going to be used in a photo book being bought out by Goliath publishing I do believe…) we also did a few other things involving menstrual blood & then some colour shots based around a bukkake theme! These were great fun I got to be covered by this bath cream that did look exactly like cum, called ‘heavenly milk’… I kid yu not it was called that! This was very amusing until it slowly worked it’s way into my closed eyes & stung like hell… but we managed to get quite a few wicked shots before I had to be led to the bathroom by Marc to wash the pseudo man-juice from my burning eyes…Ahhh all in the name of art eh?

Here’s one of the shots I pinched from Marc’s site, I haven’t been sent any of the others yet:

I like this shot a lot. It was my idea based around a piece of art work I did a while back called ‘The monthly Bleed’ Which was of a girl with her inner parts showing (like in a sex education book) then with blood running down her legs. I like how Marc’s shot & cropped this, I think it works really well.

I also went to London to do a cover shoot for Bizarre magazine with Aria Giovanni a few weeks back…This was the best photo shoot I’ve ever been on! The Bizarre guys are all such a laugh & Aria was the most beautiful & sweetest women I’ve ever met… A true Goddess incarnate! We both wore latex underwear & got sprayed with water to look all sweaty ha ha, was a VERY hot & sexy shoot… but not going to say much more; yu’ll all have to wait until the magazine comes out. I think it’s going to be the August issue. I can’t wait to see the results from the shoot printed in the mag, It’s going to be really cool, but odd to see my mug on the shelves on the local newsagents.

I’m going to have to paint Aria a portrait because she defiantly inspired me with her beauty & charisma. Was great to hang around with everyone after the shoot & getting pissed & stuffing our faces full of yummy Turkish/Moroccan food. Mmmmm hummus!

A few of the Bizarre team are coming down to the fine city of Norwich next week to do an article on the city for their little tour of Britan thang that they’re doing. I’m going to give them a guided tour of all the odd things around the place & show them the decent places to go when it comes to shops, clubs etc. I’ve managed to sort out quite a few things with the help of Kev for them to do whilst down here. We’re going to take them to Indigo Tattoo studio to let them see Kev get his genital beads inserted (Fuck that’s going to be funny!) & then we managed to blag our way into being let into spearmint rhino for free in the night time. This kicks ass because we’ll get money Put behind the bar by the manager & we talked them into letting us have permission to take photos in the establishment, which is something they normally NEVER do. So yeah, should all be a really fun filled day of mayhem & mischief…. Can’t wait!

Well going to be off for now as need to crack on with some house work & do some art… but I’ll write a more thoughtful update later… I’ve written this all at super speed ha ha. Oooo before I go looky at the prettiness I bought!!!!

It cost so much money but it’s soooo worth it! I’ve wanted this outfit forever, so finally bought it as a birthday gift to myself. I got it in black with red trim & I got the whole outfit as well! so it’s the neck corset, the corset, the straps, the kick ass pussy pants & also got some dildo pants with it. I love H-W design latex; they really do make the most amazing outfits. Can’t wait to put this on when it gets here ^_^

It looks like this:

Bye for now… *kisses*

xDDx

SCARY FEVER DREAMS...

Thu, 26 Apr 2007 12:08:39 GMT

Still feeling shite... Still didn't get much sleep. I was totally feverish last night & having the most fucked up dreams ha ha... I'm sure yu all know the kinds. Where they are totally warped & very lucid. I had one (well yet another one...I had a similar one last week!) Where I was fucking Manko with a strap on *ahem*... I'm going to be sooo embarrassed when I see her at the T.G birthday ball -_- & Then to make the dreams even more strange I had this other one (or maybe it was all the same one?) Where I was at some random person’s house party thing & every one was wasted... They then started eating bananas from this massive bowl full of them on a coffee table. But the bananas were actually penises!!! It sounds funny, but it was really fucking disturbing!...I imagine that this must of happened to someone before on an acid trip ha ha. It was all like peel the skin down & there yu had this gross, pulsating penis... & too make it worse they were wriggling about like big fat caterpillars & people kept waving them in my face & trying to get me to eat them, suck them or whatever...
...This gave me the fear & I awoke in a hot sweat.
At least no one was biting the penises & causing a major gore fest in my dream... They seemed more intent on all crowding around me & waving them at me, then eating them themselves. & Bonnie yu & Natt were well being right shits about it!!!! Though seeing Natt lick this penis banana thing was pretty funny... after I woke up. In the dream it was just freaky!

In hindsight I guess it was a pretty cool, if not odd dream & it would make a cool concept for a drawing or photo lmao. I'll have to do something based around it sometime soon ^_^

I think I have penises & sex on the brain.. hmmm can defiantly tell I haven't had any in a while.

Anyhoo I'm now going to make a start on finishing my art as I'm not feeling so nauseas right now :) The docs gave me some antibiotics so hopefully I will be fighting fit again in no time.

xDDx

ERGHHHHHH & ERGHHHHHHH!!!!!!

Wed, 25 Apr 2007 20:37:31 GMT

O my god... This is probably the most Ill I have ever been!!!! Words can not describe how wretched I feel right now. I have this horrible Viral infection thing which is mostly in the chest/throat. Basically I am having MASSIVE coughing fits nearly every damn minute... Combine this with shivers, hot sweats, extreme nausea, no appetite & sleep deprivation & yu pretty much got it. I look & feel like death!!!
It's odd because I norm don't suffer from colds like this, If I do get a cold they are never that severe & only last two days or so... This mother fucker came on Sunday evening after my shoot with Morganna & has progressed into a monster virus that I thought last night may either kill me or cause me to suffer some sort of stroke. My heart defiantly didn't want to keep on working last night lol.
I have so far had the grand total of 2.5 hours sleep... I crawled into my bed at about 10pm last night but the sandman just did not want to pay me a visit. This really, really did not help my situation... I don't think I've ever actually gone as deliriously mad as I did last night, All I wanted was to fucking sleep!!!! It got to the point where I was thinking of insane ways to knock myself out (some very dangerous, which had I of tried may of not ended up all too good lol) I tried everything! In the end I resorted to running myself a bath full of lavender oil at around 5am & necking some random sleep aid pills I found in the kitchen. & eventually I got to seep... only to awake again about 3 hours later with full blown 'OH MY GOD I'M GONNA VOMIT!' alarm bells going off.

In short; Last night fucking sucked! & If it happens again tonight I might end up topping myself in some bizarre act of trying to fell asleep.

If yu're reading this

ulorin_vex

I feel your pain hon... I'm assuming yu have the same or similar bug -__-

Well anyhoo to lighten the mood.... My shoot on Sunday pre illness went rather well. I think I could have done better though lol :P I was nervous as hell & had lots on my mind. But Morganna E-mailed me some of the pics over & they look fantastic! So I'm really happy with them & I can't wait to work with her again... especially since I know they will be even better the next time when I'm on the ball.
So just wanted to say as massive thanks again for Sunday, yu were so lovely & yu really lifted my spirits *hugs*

As I've been stuck at home all day bored as can be I decided to finish off some of my poor neglected art. I haven't been able to sit & do it all in one go though... because as soon as I concentrate on something for to long the waves of nausea start to creep up again. I've even already had to walk away then come back to writing this 3 times!!!! grrrr. The pics are looking great now they have some colour in them. I've had all these outlines sitting around for a-g-e-s & they've been fucking me off. Today I've been working on some more fetish related art...I drew a bunch of outlines out when I did my dick head piece & really meant to get round to colouring them in before now... 'tis bloody shameful! So I've almost finished my double ended dildo, rubber maid piece & my Bukkake kitty piece… O yes, mucho sex toy, cum & penisage! & BIG boobs! Fingers crossed I will have them all totally done by tomorrow night then I'll post them up. wooot! Then I'm going to start on my road kill 3 piece as that's needs doing still & prob also some more fetish ones I drew out in rough. I've got some cute gagged girls & pony girls that are just begging to be drawn up in their proper glory & then coloured in ^_^

I’ve also got to but some modrock so I can make my Asian porno octopus sculpt. I will need to get kev to help me with the cast stuff though lol. It will be very messy & fun.

I’m fucking loving my fetish based art right now, I’ve definitely found a theme/style that I’m in love with & What’s more is that I have this stream of constant ideas for stuff to draw for it. I could do a whole books worth at this rate :P

Well I'm now going to attempt to get some sleep again, so I'm going to go jump in a nice hot bath again as that did the trick last night.

Laters.

xDDx

p.s sorry for any grammar or sp mistakes… I’m ill & can not be assed!

CAN YU SEE MY SOUL IN THERE?....

Sat, 21 Apr 2007 19:58:14 GMT

Today I have been rather bored & A bit meh due to certain reasons I don't really wish to go in to... well not until I know the full extent of it. Fear not though, I'm sure I'll let yu all in on it sooner rather than later. I'm trying not to let it ruin my good mood, Keeping my chin up at the mo :)

I randomly decided to play with the macro on my digi cam this afternoon as I was curious about what my eyes looked like close up lol. They look rather neat ^_^ they’ve got all these awesome patterns & these bands of amber/greens running through them... see:

I have pretty windows *smiles*

Other than that I've been packing my stuff for a shoot I'm doing with threnodynvelvet tomorrow... This should be really fun, I've been looking forward to working with her for weeks! I think I look a bit rough at present (probably due to the insane amount of stress & worry I've got going on at the moment) So I'm hoping I look ok for the pics... I'm sure they'll look fab though :P We're going to shoot some retro stuff, medical stuff & also some high fashion style shots. It will rock!

Hmmm I really do need to get round to sorting out my bloody myspace page -__- I'm actually starting to feel guilty for having not replied to so much mail or accept the 100's of friend requests I've got. grrr I think there's a problem when yu start to feel guilt over a website! ha ha.
It's all fun & games really... I've got another twat with a fake pro on there pretending to be me http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendID=83124928 (Think it's the same person who had a fake one of me on there last year!) Some people really do have WAY too much time on their hands. Pathetic.
I also had some random girl message me, after reading about my contraceptive implant giving me excess body/facial hair on my L.J (happy to say that's improving now the bloody thing's removed) . She said something along the lines of:

'Oh my god! I can't believe you can just go ahead and admit to people that you have excess body and facial hair! You're mad! I would be so ashamed if I had that problem 0_0 Don't you ever worry that people who have read about this from your journals will take the piss and tell everyone?'

...Bless them. I had to laugh. The bottom line is: I DO NOT CARE WHAT OTHER PEOPLE CHOOSE TO THINK ABOUT ME

If people want to take the piss then whatever... it doesn't concern me. I'm not ashamed of any of my flaws. Hell, I'm far from perfect & I'm not going to swan around pretending that I am some goddess without any faults. I am comfortable in my skin. Yes Obviously I would rather not have the excess hair, But at the same time I'm not ashamed of it & I'm not going to pretend that I haven't got the issue. I'm more than happy to admit all of my bodily imperfections because the shallow bullshit really doesn't concern me. Other peoples ideals & vanity issues are utterly inconsequential to me.... I am above that & For all the people that will take the piss & whisper behind me back; Please go ahead, Be my guest... I'm happy to be your source of bitchyness if it will make yu feel O so better about yourselves & feed your egos.

& While we're at it, have a little more ammunition... go on take your full.. We can’t have starving egos can we?

The bee sting breasts that hang from my chest,
The rib bones that jut out like keys on an xylophone,
The protruding hips & collar bones.
The eyebrows that grow to meet in the middle if I don't pluck them out religiously,
The hairs that I shave off my big toes, on each side x 3
The eczema in the crooks of my arms, neck & upper back,
The dark under my eyes from the sleep that I lack,
The white lines on the top of my thigh that criss cross,
The mottled skin tones that look like marble table tops,
The veins in the backs of my knees like blue serpents sleeping & coiled up,
The indents of a few dimples on my big butt, (A.K.A cellulite)
The excess body hair on my legs, arms, stomach, face... well just about everywhere

& The fact that none of this vanity matters & That I REALLY don’t care.

Now do yu see why I am beautiful?...

I want anyone who’s reading this to reply with this little exercise. Come on don’t be afraid to admit your faults to yourself & anyone else. They are just as much yu as the good parts. Yu will also find that once yu are happy to admit them instead of trying to disguise them from others (& sometimes yourself) They really won’t bother yu half as much. Go on try it, I promise it will make yu feel better.

xDDx

HIDE & SEEK.

Sat, 14 Apr 2007 21:36:22 GMT

God I haven't really written anything for ages... I've been missing the poetry so much over the last few months & I've tried to get back into the swing of it. This time I just decided to go for it & write whatever came out & This materialized...
I'd say it's a bit rusty as I'm out of top form but It's a start. I quite like it... I don't think it will make much sense to anyone, But it is actually a pretty personal piece to me :)

HIDE & SEEK

A brutal slap of realization strikes swiftly…

& Skin that aches with desire bruises most delicately.

Blues & purples settle to stay, as all these broken capillaries bloom like divine flowers.Their sheer beauty insane.

Your finger tips; White hot. They leave lines all over. Tracing out intricate maps on my twitching flesh, marking everywhere that yu’ve been…

Touch tasting everything that yu’ve seen.

Devouring me in a cannibal lust & burning holes where yu linger in your favorite spots….Just a little too long.

Just a little to long.

Discomfort sets in & I push yu away…

…& I hide my face from yu…

…& I close my eyes to this…

…& I count to 10…

…& I seek that feeling…

& I wonder…

Just where it is that yu have hidden?

(c) Dominick Destruction 14/04/07

I did manage to finish my room spring clean today which is good. I feel pretty positive now it's all been de-junked. It really is amazing what an effect it can have on your mental state just sorting through all your physical rubbish...I think it allows yu to then work on the mental junk aswell. I also got some art done. wooo! I've finished My 'Road Kill 2' pic & 'Road Kill 3' is getting there ^_^ I also made some cute 'lil kitsch deer things out of fimo clay. I think I'll make them into necklaces or something..
I'll post pics of the art later as I need to go pic Kev up now.

Laters.

xDDx

'I WISH THE MILKMAN WOULD DELIVER MY MILK IN THE MORNING...'

Sat, 14 Apr 2007 11:13:33 GMT

Ha ha... Yu know when yu really get a song stuck in your head & the only way to get rid of it is to listen to the song?
Well I've had that problem with this one song all morning (It's so bastard catchy!). It's from the disturbing flash animation by Mr. Firth of www.fat-pie.com Called 'Milkman'. I kid yu not I prob watch this on a weekly basis... It never bores me!

...Sadly watching it never gets it out of my head, It only makes it worse!

Go see:

http://www.fat-pie.com/milkman.htm

Then see if yu can get it out of your head! lol

My plans for today are as follows:

Finish sorting my room out.
Finish at least 2 pieces of artwork that needs completing (One is from Dec last year! That is just beyond shameful -_-)
Eat lots of junk food then exercise so I don't feel guilty about it :P

That is all...

xDDx

FETISH CLUBS, PERIODS & BEETLES....

Fri, 13 Apr 2007 21:58:40 GMT

So Ummm yeah been a pretty mad week…. I went to London last weekend for the Torture Garden Easter ball & it was even more awesome than I ever dreamed it would be ^_^
Kev came with me & we met up with one of my internet buddies Laura when we got there. Laura was also there with her mum & dad who are really into the fetish scene (What great parents!!! I wanna swap lol).. It was ace to finally get to go to one of the T.G events & to meet all the people I speak to online in the flesh. hee hee. (All the other times I was supposed to go to these events something cropped up that prevented it! grrr)
I really wish I’d taken pictures of us, ‘cos me & my sugar looked da bomb! :D I wore my semi-transparent, purple with black trim/frills dress by ‘Delicia latex’& Backcombed my hair all massive. Kev wore some of my black latex leggings & a corset, Along with a blonde cosplay wig. He looked yummy. So yummy in fact that he made some gay guy in Liverpool street station literally stop in his tracks! LMAO the guys face was priceless… he just stopped dead still, mouth dropped, hands raise up in camp fashion as he tilted his head to stare as Kev’s super shiny ass.

The event itself was held as Mass nightclub in Brixton, which is this really neat converted old church. It’s got lots of rooms & lots of stairs (which was not so great!) One room was playing lots of random music like polka etc & had stage performances, another was playing dance/sleazy house & then if yu went to the downstairs room it was a massive dungeon! (also playing spiffing music might I add!)… Needless to say I did some dancing about & watched some performances but We spent pretty much the whole of the night in the dungeon/play area ;P We then proceeded to watch & join in with all the fun. I still have a bruised ass & Kev still has lots of nice welts on his back lol.

The best thing about the whole night & the club was not the venue, the clothing or the music… it was the people & the atmosphere. I guess It’s hard to describe unless yu go there, but it’s just a breath of fresh air! Seriously, It’s so refreshing to go to a club where it’s not just a meat market full of predatory wankers trying to chat yu up & get yu drunk to take advantage, Not full of people flaunting the latest designer clothes in order to impress all the other shallow people & Not full of people judging people on their looks alone. There were people of all shapes & sizes walking about at T.G with next to nothing on, or nothing! & no one was judging them. Instead it is an atmosphere where everyone was respecting one another. Like one big family.

Even though obviously the night is based around sex & sexuality; there was no pressure around that & no one there that made yu feel uncomfortable. Unlike normal clubs where if yu wear something even slightly revealing yu have every guys there being lewd & trying to grope yu! It was so totally relaxed… Honestly, there were people doing all sorts but it didn’t feel weird or uncomfortable in anyway. instead it felt like the most caring & liberating atmosphere yu could ever hope to be in. & I can’t wait to go back!

Then to top the night off, as everyone was leaving they gave everyone this pretty little bag full of flyers. 500 lucky bags were winning bags that had a free ticket in them for the ‘Latex summer ball’ In Devon. Looks like I’ll be going to Devon in July then :p… I like being lucky, free stuff is ace!

I’m also100% going to the T.G birthday ball end may, so hope to see lots of people there again. Not sure what I’ll wear yet.. I’m thinking maybe something involving a latex hood ^_^ We’ll have to see…

Ha ha, one thing that was really odd last sat was seeing my mug all over the place :P

It was so cool to be on the flyer for an event as amazing as that. I feel even more honoured now I’ve actually been!

Oooo also I got the new bizarre this week… Mucho drunken pics of me in there *hangs head in shame* That night was soooo fun though. Awwww memories ^_^

I need to meet up with some of those girls again… & as a pleasant surprise a piece of my artwork got printed in the same issue in the ‘reader art’ section. I had no idea they were even going to use it lol.

Here is me & Le Bonnie being drunk & pretty:

It’s just occurred to me (not that I’m complaining…) that I’ve been in print an awful lot recently which is nice. It feels good to know that your work is being acknowledged enough for this to occur. Apart from the T.G flyer & the bizarre mag stuff, I’m also going to be featured in the next issue of ‘Devolution magazine’ for the ‘model spotlight’ section & Satanic sluts are using me in their new book to be published worldwide, not only in the content but they’re also going to use one of my images as the front cover!!! & I’m getting paid lots for it. Boo yah! This makes me happy as I need dollar.

…Erghhh hope all that didn’t sound like I’m bragging >.< I’m just excited & proud, so I wanted to share *hugs*

Anyway enough of all that what else do I have to report?...

O yes! The dreaded curse!!! *cries* As some people may or may not know… I have not had a period for nearly a year. This was because I was on the contraceptive implant… Having no periods is a great little side effect of this device, sadly so is excess hair on my body/face & spots it would seem…. So the implant had to come out. I’m hoping the bad skin & hair will disappear quite soon. If not I’ll have to make them check me for polycystic ovaries… meh.

So once the implant was taken out they’ve put me straight on to a pill called cilest. So far so good…My skin is getting better & my moods are being great. I’ve finished my first pack yesterday & now I’m on the 7 day break in-between. & I am REALLY, REALLY terrified of having a period! I know this sounds retarded but I’ve kind of forgotten how they feel…All I remember is that I used to get them bad! I’m worried it’s going to be really gross & painful to make up for not having one for so long. I’m in a state of constant paranoia just waiting to come on. I’m sure I’ve got nothing to worry about… *crosses fingers* If it’s bad I’ve always got some co-codamol I can neck :P

So I’ve been feeling a bit shit all day due to this… a combination of the fear & getting over a cold -__- But I did get treats through the post today to cheer me up! My brand spanking new Latex leggings came from ‘libidex latex’. *screams in excitement* They are beautiful & fit like a glove. I did a little happy dance when I got the pack. I think the post people thought I was a bit loco :P

Here’s a pic of them:

Are they, or are they not the sex!?

I think as far as latex buying goes next month I’m going to avoid wasting money on eBay & instead save up for some really nice latex stuff… I’ve got my eye on quite a few bits & bobs.

I was planning on doing some artwork today as I have so many unfinished pieces of work…. But alas I didn’t get round to it. Instead I’ve been giving my room a proper good spring clean. It’s taking me a-g-e-s… I have to much junk damn it! But I did find some cool things I thought I’d lost & also I feel better now my room is in state of order & calm. I didn’t get to do any art though so boo hiss!!!! I’ll have to do some tomorrow instead.
I managed to do some last Friday though which was nice. I’m really happy with it as it’s a piece that I’ve wanted to do for quite a while. I just hadn’t been able to find a taxidermy scarab beetle…

Check it out:

The scarab is painted with gold paint & the back ground wings & solar disc are painted in water colour on some thick cartridge paper. I then mounted the lot into a frame which I painted black. I think it’s neat ^_^

The label under the scarab says ‘Khepri’… Which means ‘coming into being’. Khepri is a form of the Egyptian god Re, as the rising sun & the scarab beetle is the symbol of transformation, light out of dark, rebirth & self creation.

…Just so yu know. :p

Anyhoo I’m off to hoover now…

xDDx

P.S
I forgot to post this link before…

http://www.adam-powell.com/video.php?videoid=7

This is the super cheesy Send More Paramedics vid I was in lol. All good fun.

P.P.S

HEE HEE! Look what I found on an Old floppy disc :D It’s Blossom & Saraghhh!!!

*sigh* I miss yu guys… I’m really pissed that I didn’t get to meet up with Sara when she was down. Fucking work & illnesses.

My recent attempt at taking pics of someone else...

Sat, 31 Mar 2007 20:46:46 GMT

So instead of taking all the pics I do now as self-shot work I thought I'd have a go at taking pictures of other people...
I've decided to do this because I think it'll be fun, Help me evolve further with my photographic art, Help me gain more experience from a model point of view that I can apply to my own model work & also I think it's a really nice thing to do for me friends ^_^ 'cos I know how special & amazing it makes yu feel when yu end up with some really awesome images of yourself.
... I wanna make my friends feel that!

Well here is my first attempt...

This is Bonnie, she is awesome ^_~ & I'm so happy with these shots of her.
We decided to go for a medical/bunny sort of theme... Very child like & trevor brownesque. O & The blood is real by the way... She cut the inside of her nose to make it gush ha ha.

Enjoy...

This bottom one is defen my fave... Lol I gotta love the gags ;P & the fact Bonnie made masses of drool is such an added bonus!
I'm going to be doing some photos for Blossom soon as well, I can't wait! They're gonna rock :D I just need to get the stuff that's required for them, then we can shoot away. WOOT!

xDDx

You've been Lied to all your lives...

Sat, 31 Mar 2007 18:25:10 GMT

Ok... so hands up everyone who thinks Some drugs such as Ecstasy are dangerous….

.....

To all those who raised them up; yes yu are right... But yu are also wrong.

There has been a lot of studies going on recently into the dangers of drugs & their widespread use (the results of all the research came to light months ago but they were deemed to controversial... only now have they started to surface again) Their research was completed after covering all fields of drug use, including alcohol & tobacco. & It may shock yu to learn that what yu thought was a 'socially acceptable' form of drug use, is actually WAY more dangerous than taking an E on your night out.
Yes it's true….
All those drug education lessons the government force fed yu through school/the media are one big lie. & they knew this….

Even in light of this now rock solid evidence... (proven by some of the worlds most highly regarded scientists, including some members of the government’s own top advisory committee on drug use & drug classification) The government still insist that they are not prepared to look into reclassifications for class A drugs such as E, nor are they prepared to make alchohol/ciggarettes a class A drug... even thought they ARE more dangerous than E in so many different ways.

They have proven that drinking alcohol is more addictive, more socially damaging & more damaging to physical & mental health than popping a pill. But shhhh it’s a secret….

The government DO NOT WANT YU TO KNOW ANY OF THIS.

So unsurprisingly enough this has not been featured in the majority of the countries papers, nor has it had much coverage on the t.v news… it’s mainly been through the internet (where the government has less control over the media) . & Once again this has been swept well under the carpet as quickly as possible. But it seems that years of sweeping the truth under there has left it all looking a bit lumpy & provoked some people to take a peek….

What annoys me about this isn’t the fact I condone drugs & wish for it all to be legalised… I both agree & disagree. No, what really winds me up about this is the extent the fuckers have control over our minds/lives. For example… I’m sure most people who are reading this have dabbled in one sort of illegal drug or another at some point. And I’m sure that when they took that drug they felt nervous, worried… even afraid just before taking it. Now I’m sure they didn’t feel these things because they thought ‘I shouldn’t be taking this. It’s illegal & I might get in trouble with the law’ Instead they were feeling like that because they have been brainwashed into the whole government spin of ‘DRUGS ARE BAD’ …‘DRUGS WILL KILL YOU IF YOU TAKE THEM’ …‘DRUGS MAKE YOU TOTALLY OUT OF CONTROLL’…

Yes, what it all boils down to is a misguided fear that it’s dangerous & could kill them so easily.

But as we all now know this is just a load of bullshit!...

The government has been manipulating everyone all their lives over this, Be it through school or the media. & I’m sure yu have all read in a newspaper at some point that some poor teenager has died from taking an E while out partying… & I’m sure lots of people believe that E is really dangerous & kills lots of people every year…

But the truth is that once again this is all carefully constructed lies to get people locked into the mindset that drugs are very dangerous. instead with most of these stories that have been run in the papers throughout the years about E related deaths the actual truth behind them is that these poor people either died through having an allergic reaction to something in the pill (VERY rare) , died as a result of drinking a stupidly excessive amount with the pills which caused liver/kidney failure or died because they drank way too much water (something the government advised people on doing if taking E/speed!) & ended up drowning themselves & totally flooding their system.

Infact what may really shock yu to learn is that less than 10 people die every year as a result from taking E alone, & as I said ; these are mostly due to allergic reaction to something in them.
A third of young people have tried E & around half a million people do them every weekend with no ill effects what so ever!

…. So ummm yeah They are REALLY, REALLY dangerous….

We all know that they're quick to report on a E realted death but do the government/media print about all the alcohol related deaths that happen every year?...

Of course they don’t! That would be silly… we’d be reading the about the same thing everyday!

Because the fact is thousands of people die every day as a result of chronic alcohol consumption… & even more scary is the fact that one person dies everyday from acute alcohol poisoning.
.... Ooops they forget to educate us with these little facts.

& something else I find very disturbing is the depths they will sink to in desperation to portray E as such a dangerous drug. They classify so many deaths as E related deaths which had nothing to do with the actual cause of death resulting from taking them! Which in my eyes is fucking fiddling the figures & bending them to suit their own needs.

True examples of this are:

A).Girl on E falls down some concrete stairs (also pissed as a newt might I add) she suffers massive head trauma & dies a few days later in the hospital…& yeah this then goes down as an E related death.

B). 20 year old bloke on E gets hit by car while crossing a very busy main road & dies instantly… once again this gets put down as an E related death.

Then most shocking is…

C). Women Overdoses on Heroin. Traces of E & cannabis are found in her body (note this is 'traces'… not that she was on them on the day she O.D'd)
Shock Horror; This is yet another one that goes down as an E related death.

… Yeah they will do anything to bump up the figures & make out that a pretty safe thing is dangerous.

So tell me again… why is E illegal while alcohol is fine?

The answer is very simple….

MONEY.

The government will NEVER legalise pills or make alcohol/cigarettes illegal because it will leave them with empty pockets.

Think about it….

They know full well that E is safer than Drink but they will not let yu know this because….

Drink is expensive, the government earn a lot of money through taxes & VAT with each alcoholic beverage that is purchased. The people who aim to get sloshed to have a good night out will spend well in excess of £20 pounds (£35 in London) in one night out. & all of this provides the government with lots of money….

But with an E yu can get just as high & merry as a nights boozing from just taking the one. & One only costs yu around £2.50-£3.00… & the government don’t get any money from this.

… So of course they’re not happy for yu to know the truth at all.

Some people might argue here that it’s a good thing that the government get money from us from drinking/smoking & that it would be really bad if everyone stopped buying alchohol & instead popped an E. But that is wrong… the government would actually save a fortune if alcohol & cigarettes were made illegal through the sheer cost (drain!) on the NHS it causes each year. But then again… they don’t want us to realise that either. They couldn’t give a fuck about saving all this money through the hospitals because the fact is; that all the money saved in this way wouldn’t be going straight into their pockets! They prefer it when they have the money straight away to mess around with…after all it’s harder for people to keep track of it & question where it’s all going when it’s done like this.

Now what really should be (should have been) done is; have all drugs classified fairly & have more HONEST education about them & their use. & Have people taught how to take them safely as well as taught why they shouldn’t. Because at the end of the day everything is going to be bad for yu in excess… it’s all about moderation & responsibility.
They should also have the drugs made in a controlled environment so that people know what they’re taking isn’t cut with crap!...& then if they did this they could sell them the same way as they do now with drink...(though they still wouldn't make as much money)

like hell is that ever going to happen anyway! The goverment do not want yu to have fun! :P Esecially cheap forms of it....

So in conclusion Alcohol is worse for yu than taking a class A drug… what yu thought was safe is infact more dangerous than what yu thought was really bad for yu. & once again we learn that we are lied to & have to accept the fact that this will never change…

But I'm not saying do drop acid now or pop pills instead of consuming alchohol... All I'm saying is be a bit more wise to the situation & don't judge the people that do choose to do them. After all... They are no worse than yu & all the other people puffing away on their cigs & drinking like a fish.

If yu want to know a bit more about the studies of this please visit this link:

http://society.guardian.co.uk/drugsandalcohol/story/0,,2040887,00.html

& here is the actual results they came up with in order of most dangerous drugs:

(remember this is based on how addictive the substance is, how harmful it is both to physical & mental health & how socially damaging it is…)

1). HEROIN

2). COCAINE

3). BARBITURATES

3). STREET METHADONE (A.K.A Crystal Meth)

4). ALCOHOL

5). KETAMINE

6). BENZODIAZEPINES (Wide ranging class of prescription pain killers)

7). AMPHETAMINE (Speed)

8). TOBACCO

9). BUPRENORPHINE (Opioid drug used to treat Opiate addictions)

10). CANNABIS

11). SOLVENTS

12). 4-MTA (Amphetamine derivative sold as ‘Flatliners’

13). L.S.D

14). METHYLPHENIDATE (Amphetamine- like drug that’s used to treat ADHD!)

15). ANABOLIC STEROIDS

16). GHB

17). ECSTACY

18). ALKYL NITRATES (A.K.A Poppers)

19). Khat

Anyway…. Yu may have found that interesting or yu may have found it one big annoying rant lol. Either way just make sure to always use your head & challenge everything the media tells yu. Remember….

Don’t believe everything yu read.

xDDx

...Secret Whisperings & Silent Sins...

I'm selling EVERYTHING!!! If you want anything let me know :)

...Insomnia...

Kali...

Floral Play piercing...

CLOTHES FOR SALE!!!!!!!!

Beata Virgo Maria....

CROSS DRESSING & TAXIDERMY!

LADY OF THE LILLIES...

I'M STILL ALIVE *WAVES*

SCARY FEVER DREAMS...

ERGHHHHHH & ERGHHHHHHH!!!!!!

CAN YU SEE MY SOUL IN THERE?....

HIDE & SEEK.

'I WISH THE MILKMAN WOULD DELIVER MY MILK IN THE MORNING...'

FETISH CLUBS, PERIODS & BEETLES....

My recent attempt at taking pics of someone else...

You've been Lied to all your lives...

I'M STILL ALIVE WAVES